Mother's Day  / Mommy

Kodeebug,
Mothers Day is only a couple days away. And your away. I sit here and wonder why this happened to you , I miss my littleman sam. I know your in good hands up there but that does't help the pain that is soooo real down here in our hearts. Will the pain ever subside? I love you with all my heart, & miss you with every passing day. I know only the good die young, I hope your at peace. I will see you again someday.
Thinking of you always,
Mommy
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miss you  / Friend
 words cannot express my grief and anger over what has happended to you,
Kodee r.i.p. now sweet angel. only God knows why. Close

Traveling Tandem  / With Love

Traveling Tandem

At first I saw God as my observer, my judge
keeping track of the things I did wrong,
so as to know whether I merited heaven or hell when I die.
He was out there sort of like a president.
I recognized his picture when I saw it, 
but I didn't really know him.

But later on when I met Christ,
it seemed as though life were rather like a bike ride,
but it was a tandem bike and I noticed that Christ
was in the back helping me pedal.

I don't know just when it was
that he suggested we change places,
but life hasn't been  the same since.
When I had control
I knew the way.
It was rather boring, but predictable...
It was the shortest distance between two points.
But when he took the lead, he knew delightful long cuts,
up mountains and through rocky places
at breakneck speeds.
It was all I could do to hang on!
Even thought it looked like madness,
He said, "Pedal!"

I worried and was anxious and asked,
"Where are you taking me?"
He laughed and didn't answer,
and I started to learn to trust.

I forgot my boring life and entered into the adventure.
And when I'd say, "I'm scared,"
He'd lean back and touch my hand.

He took me to people with gifts that I needed.
Gifts of healing, acceptance, and joy.
They gave me gifts to take on my journey,
My Lord's and mine.

And we were off again.
He said, "Give the gifts away, they're extra baggage,
too much weight."
So I did...to the people we met.
And I found that in giving I received,
and still our burden was light.
I did not trust Him at first in control of my life.
I thought he'd wreck it;
but he know "bike" secrets....
knows how to make it bend to take sharp corners,
knows how to jump to clear high rocks,
knows how to fly to shorten scary passages.

And I am learning to shut up and pedal in the strangest places,
and I'm beginning to enjoy the view and the cool breeze on my face.
With my delightful, constant companion, Jesus Christ.
And when I'm sure I just can't do any more,
He just smiles and says... "KEEP PEDALING!"

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Tour of Heaven  / Mimi Sullivan (New Friend )
Hi Kodee,

I was wondering if I could ask you the favor of showing JT around heaven and helping him out?

Thanks so much!

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Thoughts and Prayers  / Carol (None)
I happened upon this site by mistake.  Kodee is the name of my best friend and we were talkin on the yahoo messenger and some links came up with the name of Kodee beside our messenger box.  Had never noticed it before so I clicked on the first one.  Was this site.  I began to read and look at the pictures of your Son, Kodee and it brought tears to my eyes.  I dont know you, I live in South Texas, but I had to let you know how very sorry I am for your loss.
I have a grandson who is 14 and so many of the things you said of your Kodee reminded me of my Zac.  You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.  Your Kodee is an Angel now.

In my thoughts...
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I'll be there  / Kodee I. Love You
 

Daddy please don't look so sad,
Momma please don't cry,
Cause I am in the arms of Jesus and
He sings me lullabies.

Please try not to question God,
Don't think He is unkind.
Don't think He sent me to you,
And then He changed His mind.

You see, I am a Special Child,
And I am needed up above,
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
The product of your love.

I'll always be there with you,
And watch the sky at night
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo's brilliant light

You'll see me in the morning frost,
That mists your windowpane.
That's me, in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.

When you feel a gentle breeze,
From a gentle wind that blows,
That's me, I'll be there,
Planting a kiss on your nose.

When you see a child playing,
And your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there,
giving your heart a hug.

So, daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mommy don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus,
and He sings me lullabies.
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TILL WE MEET AGAIN  / CATHY
   THEY SAY THERE ARE NO TEARS IN HEAVEN
                    BUT THEY MUST BE WRONG
        BECAUSE YOU TOOK PART OF OUR BROKEN HEARTS
                            WHEN YOU WENT AWAY
        I KNOW OUR TEARS MUST HAVE FOLLOWED YOU,
                              HOW ELSE CAN IT IT BE?
                             OUR SPIRT FEELS BROKEN
        CAUSED YOU ARE NO LONGER HERE WITH US.
                              WE CRIED TO THE HEAVENS,
                              OUR TEARS FELL LIKE RAIN.
         SO, I KNOW OUR TEARS MUST BE IN HEAVEN.
                THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
         THEY SAY SOMEDAY WE WILL ACCEPT YOUR PASSING,
                      BUT RIGHT NOW THAT CAN'T BE TRUE
         BECAUSE PART OF US IS IN HEAVEN WITH YOU,
                         OUR TEARS FOLLOWED YOU



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I miss you  / Kate Barr (Friend)
Kodee,
i cant believe it has been two years since i ahve seen you and it is too long. last night was hard on everyone because we neess you so much.
watch over everyone especially your mom <33
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ALWAYS IN MY HEART  / Dawn Alcott (step-mother)
Kodee,I can't begin to tell you how much you are loved and missed. 
There are no words that could ever explain. Wow, two years! How can that be? In some ways it only feels like yesterday that you walked in the door and we all piled on top of you yelling "Kodee's here!"
We all long to have one of those days again. I assume that as long as we keep our faith in God that ,that will happen one day.
Daddy,myself, Jimmy, Jonathan,Nan,Pop, Bonnie, and the rest of the family you know who!! You are a light in our hearts that will live forever!! The biggest most shining light that people couldn't even imagine! You are and always will be our perfect child!
We'll never stop wondering what happened on this tragic night two years ago? That's between you and God. But it will be something that we'll think about for the rest of our lives. I know that God is holding you in the palm of hands and that's what keeps me strong.God is tending to our precious Kodee.
Kodee you are an everlasting light in our hearts that will shine always.
Tonight I will say goodnight for the family .It has been a difficult day. we all love and think of you like you never went away.
Daddy,Daddy,Daddy  Loves you!
Dawn loves you!
Jimmy,Jim  loves you!
Jonathan loves you!
Nanny,Nanny loves you!
Pop loves you!
Aunt Bon loves you!
Amber loves you! 
Alex loves you!
So many more Kod, but I know you know  that.
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2 years kodee  / Rachel Smoot
hey kodee, i just got home from the benefit. it was a hard day but everyone tried to stay strong for you. at the benefit, it was crazy just looking at everything. you made an impact on so many people's lives. you were so awesome & funny. i loved looking at the pictures of you dirtbiking, skating, snowboarding... and being goofy, dressing up like a girl. we love and miss you soo muchhh Close

ALWAYS IN MY HEART  / Dawn Alcott (Step-mother)

If tears could
build a stairway
and memories a lane
I'd walk
right up to Heaven
and bring you
home again




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Angel / With Love:

An angel came down from heaven yesterday,
he stayed just long enough to rescue me.
And he told me a story yesterday,
about the sweet love between the moon and the deep blue sea.

Then he spread his wings, high over me, 
he said he's gonna come back tomorrow.

Fly on, our sweet angel,
fly on through the sky.
Fly on our sweet angel,
Tommorrow your gonna be by our side.

Sure enough, he came home to thee,
Silver wings silhouetted against a child's sunrise
and our angel, he said unto thee
today is the day for you to rise.

So come and take my hand,
your gonna see the land;
your all gonna rise;
Then he took us high over yonder.

And we said
Fly on, our sweet angel,
fly on through the sky.
Fly on our sweet angel,
forever your gonna be by our sides.

It is my sincere hope and prayers that the benefit was a great success this year and that Trina's angel was watching over her and protecting her with his silver wings, tonight and always.

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TILL WE MEET AGAIN  / CATHY
  WHAT CAN I SAY KODEE ITS TWO YEARS TODAY THAT YOU LEFT US AND WENT TO LIVE WITH GOD AND ALL THE ANGELS. 

I HOPE THAT SOME DAY WE WILL MEET AGAIN. AND THAT I HAVE BEEN GOOD ENOUGH TO COME AND LIVE IN HEAVEN.

I KNOW IM NOT PERFECT  AND I MADE ALOT OF MISTAKES, 
BUT I DID ALOT OF GOOD THINGS TOO.

KODEE YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART RIP

PEEK A BOO I SEE YOU
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Sad 2years without you  / Mommy
Dear Kodee,
I'm sitting here wishing you were here, crying as I begin to write about my baby. Sometimes I feel so strong But today I am weak.
I am having the Benefit tonight in memory of you to help build up a scholarship fund for your class so they can go to college. 
I really miss you Kodee, More than I could ever write about on this site. My heart sill is in pain & always will be,  there will never be anyone as great & wonderful as you. YOU WERE MY BUD!!! 
I still ask why, but I'll never know. All I know is that the best son there ever was is gone & I want him back. 
Everyone in your family hurts, but  we all got 13 wonderful years to spend with you and they were wonderful. 
Come visit us tonight .

I miss you buggy,
Peace , Love , & Happiness
Love you Forever,
Mommy
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Best day of my Life October 14, 1991

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"Our Skateboard Angel In Heaven"  / Sue (Aunt)
Hey Kod,
I can't believe that we are coming up on 2 years.  It still feels like it was just yesterday this bad dream happend.  I hope you know how much we all love and miss you, I don't even think there are any words to describe it.  Kod, this is so hard on your mom and she finds it hard to get through each day at times.  Help me help your mom stay strong.  I know you want her to live and spread the word about this dangerous game they call the "Choking Game".  There was a kid on the Today Show that was revived from doing this.  I just wish it was you.  Kod, I love your mom so much, we have become so close, sisters that are bestfriends and I am so glad I have this bond with her, I don't think I could live without her in my life, so please help me keep her strong, I need that from you.  Your benefit is tomorrow night.  She works so hard to make each year a special day in memory of you.  Maybe you could send us a sign that you are here with us in spirit, I believe you are always around us all the time, sometimes things happen and we know you are there just being silly and making us laugh.  Do know dear Kodee we love and miss you more than words could say.  Always thinking of you........ Close

hey kodee  / Jennie

mann.
 its hard to belive that tomrow itll be 2 years since youve been gone. time goes by so fast...you just dont see it go by. I still rememeber liek it was yesterday when we fount out what happened. I even rember what i was wearing. Guess those are the kinds of moments you'll remember even when your old. Pennsauken is just so not the same without you. Your friends arent the same. At times i wonder if what things would be like if you & theresa were still here. You guys left so fast and out of the blue. Sometimes i feel like you gusy are still around we just dont see you guys. Erin says she sees a little boy with a blue hood always and so does mike. Eve erin's mom say him. We all think its you :) hopefully it is. Its always nice to hear that people see you or that youve visited someone. I wish you'd visit me me and visit your mom. She loves you so much and misses you like we'll never know. You were truly her heart. And she really wants to see you. Some people say adults dont believe, bu shes one of the only adults I know that believes and has hope of seeing you again. So I hope everythinsg good in heaven. Tell my baby girl I miss her and i love her. 
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umm i miss you bud.  / Erin Calderon (close friend )
hey kod two years will be saturday. i cant believe it. youve been gone for too long bud. well hockey is finally starting. remember all my goals are for you.








well love ya kod have fun up there.
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TILL WE MEET AGAIN  / CATHY

 HI KODEE
IT'S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I BEEN HERE IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T THINK OF YOU. I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME. BUT YOU KNOW THAT FROM WHERE YOU ARE. IT' WILL BE TWO YEAR'S THAT YOU HAVE LEFT US AND IT STILL HURTS THE SAME. WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH.
I KNOW YOU ARE HAVEING A GRAT TIME IN HEAVEN AND MAKING ALOT OF NEW TEAMATES. WELL I WILL NOT  HOLD YOU UP ANY LONGER  SO I'LL SAY SEE YOU LATER  


ALWAYS IN MY

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imissyou / Erin Calderon (close friend/ hockey )
god kod i didnt think it was possible to miss someone as much as i miss you.
you were and still are so amazing, i just wish i could see you; at least one last time to say goodbye.
your benifit is coming up and we have been doing better getting donaions and what not. 
we started out really behind but now slowly things are piecing together.
and every minute of it i think of you.
i love you and hope you are okay.
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Walk a mile in my shoes  / Mommy

Walk A Mile In My Shoes
If I could be you, if you could be me
For just one hour, if we could find a way
To get inside each other's mind
If you could see you through my eyes
Instead your own ego I believe you'd be
I believe you'd be surprised to see
That you've been blind
Walk a mile in my shoes
just walk a mile in my shoes
Before you abuse, criticize and accuse
Then walk a mile in my shoes
Now if we spend the day
Throwin' stones at one another
'Cause I will think, 'cause I will think
To wear my hat the same way you do
Well, I may be common people
But I'm your brother
And when you strike out
You're tryin' to hurt me
It's hurtin' you, Lord how mercy
Now there are people on reservations
And out in the ghetto
And whether they're for the grace of God
Or you and I,
If I only had wings of a little angel
Don't you know, I'd fly
To the top of a mountain
And then I'd cry, cry, cry


words and music: Joe South 

I MISS YOU KODEE, I LOVE YOU !!!
LOVE ALWAYS,
Mommy
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